A glorious and hopeful call to rest, I adored this! All of it, though especially the connection between feeling like our value is conditional (“Who will tell me that I am good, that I am ok, that I belong”) and how it’s reinforced by the the prevailing and horrible-in-so-many-ways “wellness entrepreneur hamster wheel”.
Oh boy, sooooo much hit me straight to my heart because that's exactly the journey I've been on for the last two years too. My injury, which forced me into my own lockdown, came when people re-entered the world. But through all the struggle and supposed jealousy for life out there, I started to embrace my body's pace, my pace. How freeing it has been. And yet, as you wrote about your inner niggles, part of me feels like I need to do more, be more out there, be more seen. Eff that! I'm finally going at my own pace, even with all these inner niggles poking me. Thank you so much for your words.
"Being that busy felt like the appropriate price to pay to feel a sense of legitimacy, to keep imposter syndrome at bay."
TOO REAL, FANNY.
What a shared chapter so many of us seem to be living. Thank you for writing about it.
so much same
I don't know if I've ever read something more resonant with what I'm struggling with. THANK YOU. Agreed, brilliant. Thanks for putting it into words.
I second that emotion. You nail it every time. Thank you.
You're fucking brilliant. (That is all.)
A glorious and hopeful call to rest, I adored this! All of it, though especially the connection between feeling like our value is conditional (“Who will tell me that I am good, that I am ok, that I belong”) and how it’s reinforced by the the prevailing and horrible-in-so-many-ways “wellness entrepreneur hamster wheel”.
Oh boy, sooooo much hit me straight to my heart because that's exactly the journey I've been on for the last two years too. My injury, which forced me into my own lockdown, came when people re-entered the world. But through all the struggle and supposed jealousy for life out there, I started to embrace my body's pace, my pace. How freeing it has been. And yet, as you wrote about your inner niggles, part of me feels like I need to do more, be more out there, be more seen. Eff that! I'm finally going at my own pace, even with all these inner niggles poking me. Thank you so much for your words.