I really enjoyed this, Fanny. The idea of untangling is so present for me right now, and a constant theme in my journals and planners. I mainly use planners these days as dated memory keeping / and-or specific explorations rather than plan planning (in one planner I use the monthly pages to write down my favorite moment with a person, for example) and then the undated days to explore or honor that moment more deeply...mostly because my relationship with time has always been pretty...loose. My partner says I’m “on Taurus time.” Which I can’t argue with. My Capricorn rising tho is like “bitch we got shit to be the boss of - go!” So I have that energy paired with “I’m on my way” meaning “I’m getting dressed now that this event is starting.” Lol. Anyway, I love your exploration here. Pages as portals, indeed. ❤️✨
Oh how I relate to Taurus time! I didn't think about my chart as it relates to my relationship to time, but as a Taurus rising and a Cancer moon, my consistency, and pace, is often that of mud. And my Sagittarius sun is all, "Fuck you I won't do what you tell me!" So yeah–in all the ways, I canNOT be hustled.
I really love your writing. Here you describe so well my own similar attraction to/repulsion from planners. One year I created my own -- hours of work! -- then never used it. I've gone back to scribbling lists on the backs of envelopes, credit card statements and the like. It honestly feels okay. Years ago I got a weekly calendar that had each day as a circle, six clustered flower-like around the centre. But the centre was Saturday, when my heart felt it should be Sunday, so although I liked the release from linearity to circularity and even a near spiral, I found it hard to use.
So many interesting ways of interacting with time. Is it a source of pressure, or neutral? I know really for me that it's just part of the air I breathe, and I make it pressure or support as a reflection of my internal state. This morning at one point I wanted to write a list of things to do, then realized in fact I was feeling overwhelmed and it would be better to just say hello to that something in me that's feeling overwhelm. That brought me back to unplanned but strangely effective flow.
I do enjoy the classic "the point of time is to make sure everything doesn't happen all at once."
Thank you again for the lovely truthful thoughtful post.
"Better to just say hello to that something in me that's feeling overwhelm." YES!!! And if that part wants to make a list? Great. If it wants to take a nap? Even better.
I appreciate this read so so much ❤️ I honestly have shifted my planner (one of the undated weekly inserts in my TN) to be a very loose planner, part memory-keeping, part appointment reminder, part to-do lists, with the undated part being essential when
my neurodivergent brain forgets it exists for 3 weeks. But feeling free of shame when that happens is so integral to my planner/journal space being loving and supportive instead of another rigid, critical space of feeling inadequate. Thanks for sharing, your pages are beautiful!
I really enjoyed this, Fanny. The idea of untangling is so present for me right now, and a constant theme in my journals and planners. I mainly use planners these days as dated memory keeping / and-or specific explorations rather than plan planning (in one planner I use the monthly pages to write down my favorite moment with a person, for example) and then the undated days to explore or honor that moment more deeply...mostly because my relationship with time has always been pretty...loose. My partner says I’m “on Taurus time.” Which I can’t argue with. My Capricorn rising tho is like “bitch we got shit to be the boss of - go!” So I have that energy paired with “I’m on my way” meaning “I’m getting dressed now that this event is starting.” Lol. Anyway, I love your exploration here. Pages as portals, indeed. ❤️✨
Oh how I relate to Taurus time! I didn't think about my chart as it relates to my relationship to time, but as a Taurus rising and a Cancer moon, my consistency, and pace, is often that of mud. And my Sagittarius sun is all, "Fuck you I won't do what you tell me!" So yeah–in all the ways, I canNOT be hustled.
Love this!!
I really love your writing. Here you describe so well my own similar attraction to/repulsion from planners. One year I created my own -- hours of work! -- then never used it. I've gone back to scribbling lists on the backs of envelopes, credit card statements and the like. It honestly feels okay. Years ago I got a weekly calendar that had each day as a circle, six clustered flower-like around the centre. But the centre was Saturday, when my heart felt it should be Sunday, so although I liked the release from linearity to circularity and even a near spiral, I found it hard to use.
So many interesting ways of interacting with time. Is it a source of pressure, or neutral? I know really for me that it's just part of the air I breathe, and I make it pressure or support as a reflection of my internal state. This morning at one point I wanted to write a list of things to do, then realized in fact I was feeling overwhelmed and it would be better to just say hello to that something in me that's feeling overwhelm. That brought me back to unplanned but strangely effective flow.
I do enjoy the classic "the point of time is to make sure everything doesn't happen all at once."
Thank you again for the lovely truthful thoughtful post.
"Better to just say hello to that something in me that's feeling overwhelm." YES!!! And if that part wants to make a list? Great. If it wants to take a nap? Even better.
"a true slut for stationery" hello it meeeeee
This is a beautiful, thoughtful, encouraging, and freeing piece of writing. I love your brain so much!!
And thus, The Sisterhood of Sluts for Stationery is born.
LET'S GET JACKETS
I appreciate this read so so much ❤️ I honestly have shifted my planner (one of the undated weekly inserts in my TN) to be a very loose planner, part memory-keeping, part appointment reminder, part to-do lists, with the undated part being essential when
my neurodivergent brain forgets it exists for 3 weeks. But feeling free of shame when that happens is so integral to my planner/journal space being loving and supportive instead of another rigid, critical space of feeling inadequate. Thanks for sharing, your pages are beautiful!